TURKEY VULTURE

I felt blessed when the Turkey Vulture flew over our circle the morning we gathered by the ocean to start our special day. I looked this up on the net and thought it was beautiful. .....

The Cherokee know the Vulture as 'Peace Eagle', for the Turkey Vulture Kills Nothing. The scientific latin name for vulture is Catharsis Aura ~ Golden Purifier. The job the vulture performs is a sacred service for all animal life forms. The toxins, pathogens and diseases that are possible as animals decompose and rot is substantial. The vulture was designed to clean this up. And with this purpose it accomplishes the Creators will with honor and no complaints.
The vulture does what needs to be done. It cleans up, protects, and is connected to the water as its protector. To some it is ugly, but upon the invisible air it rides the current defying gravity with beauty and grace. It teaches us that nasty jobs of service that need to get done are rewarded with great gifts.
The vulture is often looked down upon. However, the vulture in fact, looks down on you. The vulture sees all and knows what is done to the Earthly Mother
The vulture mates for life, and lives in community upon a communal roost each night. This roost location varies each night. Each vulture 'clan' cleaning the territory as it sees fit. With communication that is transacted from many miles away, a vulture can see the flight patterns of its brethren, with eyesight ten times better than our own (not verified). A clan chieftan sends a signal that is relayed each evening, and a roost is selected. These roosts can be constant for many years and even generations. A system of roosts helps to ensure that the land is purified systematically. The roost is usually on a ridge that overlooks a river, and is normally in a spot that receives the last of the days sun, as well the first at sunrise. Each morning, the vulture clan turns to face the sacred sun. Warming the feathers together in union before heading to work.
Eye contact with a vulture is easy. Just look at them and they see you.

Dreaming

I am still buzzing from our time together in that mystical landscape on Galiano.  I awoke this morning realizing how I need to  "walk the talk" from a deeper level.  I appreciated Lennie's  comment that if discomfort appears, to see it as a portal of opportunity instead of pulling back in resistence. I think resistence is a habit I didn't realize has such a pull on me. I got this sense that resistence prevents intimacy from deepening, and it all seems to loop back to perceptions of fear I still hold. Guess I need to keep stalking!! Under the gaze of the full moon, I felt her gentle energy pulling and tugging at me ...waiting  patiently for the current to shift.

DREAMS FROM THE VISION QUEST

I am so grateful for the amazing creations we are doing
Our vision quest on Galiano was very gentle and soothing.  I spent a lot of time sleeping and dreaming. 
One dream in particular, I woke from and thought, "I should try and remember this and figure out what it means". 
Wisdom said, "No, just recall the feeling that this brings up for you.
The feeling was COMPLETION,  and SATISFACTION that something was completed.
Another dream was about ANGER  and the need to define a BOUNDARY.
Yet another dream involved a Mynah bird and the feeling was of DELIGHT and PLAY.

Things I Promised Myself.....

"That I Would Be Good"

that I would be good even if I did nothing
that I would be good even if I got the thumbs down
that I would be good if I got and stayed sick
that I would be good even if I gained ten pounds

that I would be fine even if I went bankrupt
that I would be good if I lost my hair and my youth
that I would be great if I was no longer queen
that I would be grand if I was not all knowing

that I would be loved even when I numb myself
that I would be good even when I am overwhelmed
that I would be loved even when I was fuming
that I would be good even if I was clingy

that I would be good even if I lost sanity
that I would be good
whether with or without you 


That I Would be Good by Alanis Morrisette

At Ease with My Unfoldment

With the vision quest coming up.....I have been contemplating what I would like to focus on. What has come up for me, is to further nurture the sentiment of "Being at Ease with my Unfoldment"
Right away I am acknowledging that I am not unfolded....
It is a process that goes on forever. My wisdom tells me that there is no "getting there".
It would make sense to become at ease with that.

Without my impatience to be enlightened, to be completely aware of all of who and what I am All the time....
without my imagination/expectation of what that would look like for me.....
Then what? Can I let that go?