The element of fire teaches us about cleansing and action. Cleansing is an ongoing process and if you procrastinate cleaning say, your house, you’re in for an unpleasant surprise if you think it should still be clean from your last go round with the mop and vacuum. The same goes for these, unwanted beliefs that have been accumulating all these years. Beliefs like what I should be, could be, will become are still here. Same with the habits I postpone changing. I try to hide them away or even pull them out into the open thanks to my work with awareness, but they are not going anywhere unless I do the work to clean them up. Instead of taking the action when I first notice something I’d like to change, I set it aside to deal with later. I just continue with my old comfortable patterns. I don’t even bother ‘sincerely pretending’ to disengage from my unhealthy habits. Recently, I found myself horrified at all my cruddy behavior. I find I keep resisting what I am becoming. I’ve been spending a lot of time preparing to change at some undefined later date instead of Just Doing It. Today, to honor the winter solstice, I’m letting go of one habit. Poof, goodbye.
