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Chant by Snataum Kaur

Jeff Foster Quote

Jeff Foster sums it up again for me:

"My greatest spiritual guru has always been discomfort. 

Just sitting with pain or discomfort, without trying to escape in any way, without expectation, without a goal in mind, without seeking anything - that's the juicy place, the place of creative transformation, the place where mud turns to gold.

For many years, I would just sit with grief, frustration, anger, fear, pain, just resting in that bubbling, burning mess for hours and hours, without trying to escape or fix my experience, without hope, without a dream... until peace was discovered even in the midst of that storm, the unshakeable, non-conceptual, ever-present peace that I am, and have always been. 

Instead of trying to escape discomfort, we let discomfort reveal its deeper secrets. We sit with discomfort and watch all boundaries between 'me' and 'discomfort' melt away, until it is no longer 'me sitting with my discomfort' at all, and never was. We sit with frustration in the place where it has not yet coagulated into 'I am frustrated'. We sit with fear prior to the resurrection of the image 'I am the one who is afraid'. We sit with anger before the birth of our identity as 'the angry one'. We know ourselves as the vast open space, the boundless and identity-less ocean that welcomes all of these waves as its beloved children, returned home at last, home at last.

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More on discovering deep peace even within seemingly uncomfortable experiences, in my new book 'The Deepest Acceptance': http://tinyurl.com/b79z76j

My "clearing"

I found this quote on Facebook. I have been thinking of ways to express where I was coming from on Saturday night. I thought this post hit on a lot of points that express it very well for me and wanted to share: 

New Moon in Scorpio – 2012
Posted by Jana Groscost Matthews in http://newmoonmanifesting.com/tag/new-moon-november-2012/

Be prepared to dig deep into the emotional pools with the New Moon in Scorpio on Tuesday, November 13, 2012 at 5:08pm EST (2:08pm PST). Our awareness is turned inward with transformative Scorpio as it pushes us to remove illusions and find our authentic selves.
Scorpio is a water sign, which rules our emotions. Experiencing a full range of emotions is a blessing and a curse of the human experience. Without an adequate understanding of how to process emotions they often get stuck within the physical body. With Scorpio we are perfectly positioned for a personal renewal at the deepest levels. We are prompted to let go of the stale behaviors and unresolved emotions in order to openly receive healthier perspectives. When we learn how to process what we are feeling instead of allowing the vibration of the emotions to stagnate within us, we become masters of our emotions instead of being controlled by them.
The New Moon in Scorpio is intensified with the Solar Eclipse that occurs on Wednesday November 14, 2012. Solar Eclipses occur with a New Moon. When the moon covers the sun during an eclipse was are prompted to go deeper within to clean out all the emotional clogs that hold us back from manifesting our deepest desires. Your inner wisdom is encouraging you to face and resolve them. Ask for guidance regarding the best way to face your issues. You’ll be amazed at the support you’ll receive when you follow through. When you avoid cleaning out the gunk, it continues to haunt you."

I am glad I didn't wait for these particular celestial events. I see this work as ongoing. I am VERY grateful Lennie had encouraged me to let "that" side of me out more and that I have a wonderful SAFE group of friends/fellow travellers, that can create a sacred space which gave me the strength to take a different action than my conditioned one of stuffing it back down.
I am continuing to receive insights from that experience. I trust that what came up for each and everyone of you to be opportunities to learn about one's self as well.
I is SO clear to me now, how what came up for me, had NOTHING to do with anyone's words or actions.  EXPECTATIONS ARE PRECONCEIVED DISAPPOINTMENTS
My intention is to learn to feel my disappointment, anger, hurt, whatever, and express it appropriately in the moment.
Oh my god, it seems so simple!!!
Anyway, thank you, thank you, thank you! I love you.