Hanging with the Merry Ones At Saltspring!

An intense weekend - intense in heat, sunlight, full  moon, sunrise mornings, late night "beauty circle" - everything felt heightened, reflective and intensified. Being on Mt. Maxwell at dawn was like standing at the cusp between different dimensions -I felt disoriented as if looking at the world through a screen. All my senses felt activated - my eyes, my hearing and smell. The world suddently felt like it was extending its heart towards us.  As I watched the sky turn red and pink, then intensify to gold, I wondered if I was dreaming or awake. Did it even matter? Everthing had a silent, slow and mythical quality to it - I wondered if this experience was directing me to wake up and view the world from a new perspective. Under the heat of the day, my body and brain dialed down, and all I could do was sit and observe. No energy to bustle around -silence was my voice. Shifting back to the world of language, we sat in the " beauty circle" and reflected our hearts back to each other. For a moment, I felt I could see the light  shine through each of us.  It was beautiful to witness everyone's truth, and better understand the power that "trusting the moment" can bring to our lives.

Sooke River

Om Bhur Bhuva Svaha Tat Savitur Varenyam Bhargo Devasya Dhimahi Dhiyo Yo Nah Prachodayat

The Drumming!!!

In case you all were missing Drum Sex. Here is a reminder. Drum Video

FORGIVENESS

(Nanaimo River) Realizing that I have been judging myself harshly and then judging myself for judging, I have been inspired to re-direct my energy to forgiveness practices. "If I have harmed anyone in anyway either knowingly or unknowingly through my own confusions I ask their forgiveness. If anyone has harmed me in anyway wither knowingly or unknowingly through their own confusions I forgive them. And if there is a situation I am not yet ready to forgive I forgive myself for that. For all the ways that I harm myself, negate, doubt, belittle myself, judge or be unkind to myself through my own confusions, I forgive myself."0. ~Buddhist Forgiveness Prayer

June 23, The Day of the Last Judgement!!!

At the gathering, we joked calling June 23 the Day of the Last Judgement and that endless cycle of judging our judgements. The challenge of those words keeps ringing in my ears. I imagine myself living free and unattached to stories and judgements. Even as I write,a pang of fear arises at the thought of living on the high wire! I keep reflecting on Sleeping Beauty, the Black Fairy and all the Grimm Fairy Tale characters we had explored. For me, they carried so many clues + insights - Sleeping Beauty awaiting that kiss of consciousness, and the Black Fairy, a reminder of those aspects of ourselves we don't invite to the party! They are such great stories of innocence, trauma and transformation - but in the end, the energy always seems to turn back to the light for resolution. I am trying to examine my life like those fairy tales, recognizing those archtypical patterns, stalking them, and creating my own transformations. I often forget that the journey is our choice whether we are aware of it or not. Like Jennie says, we are the only game in town!!

Self First!!!

"If you want to awaken all of humanity, then awaken all of yourself. If you want to eliminate the suffering in the world, then eliminate all that is dark and negative in yourself. Truly, the greatest gift you have to give is that of your own self-transformation." --Lao Tzu

The Only Game In Town

Dear Merry Ones,
From my point of view, exploring the depths of who/what I am is the Only game in town.
Until I master loving my Self unconditionally, I do not think I can offer that to anyone or anything else. 
Besides, I am always available to be with. Life seems to be holographic, what I do to a part, effects the whole. I only need to know myself in Truth to know all of it.
"Spirituality is not a belief system or ideology. It is the surrender of one's ego to the infinite wisdom and knowledge that is the universe."


And so it is.