Sunday, March 18, 2012

The Journey

 
The Journey

by Mary Oliver

One day you finally knew
what you had to do, and began,
though the voices around you
kept shouting
their bad advice-
though the whole house
began to tremble
and you felt the old tug
at your ankles.
“Mend my Life!”
each voice cried.
But you didn’t stop.
You knew what you had to do,
though the wind pried
with it’s stiff fingers
at the very foundations-
though their melancholy
was terrible.
It was already late
enough, and a wild night,
and the road full of fallen
branches and stones.
But little by little,
as you left the voices behind,
the stars began to burn
through the sheets of clouds,
and there was a new voice,
which you slowly
recognized as your own,
that kept you company
as you strode deeper and deeper
into the world,
determined to do
the only thing you could do-
determined to save
the only life you could save.

Saturday, March 10, 2012

Walls

A song I came across that reminded me of the early days on our journey when I first discovered "The brick walls" my self created brick walls. I was so frightened and angry then and now still seeing the self created walls but with a gentleness and understanding that they keep coming down. Watching this video, listening to the melody, rhythm and the whole creativity in putting it together so playfully reminded me of all of us. So I dedicate this song to Life, myself, our teacher/mentor/mirror Lennie and to each and everyone one of us. I am so grateful for what we all created together. Lets keep going, and who knows maybe we will create our own song and even write that book!
Love you all!
 
I love at the end when they all started howling like a wolf.  Made me smile and reminded me of us. 

Sunday, March 4, 2012

S*#t Toltecs Say

Dear Ones,


I am passing on one of the many videos circulating the net about different memes on What the S#*t folks say.
This one is on What the S#*t Yogis Say


I think we should compose one on The S#*t Toltecs Say


I hope this brings a chuckle or two. Much love.

Thursday, February 23, 2012

Know Thyself

"Possess, obsess, request... ulterior motive at the back of ones mind, and only you are conscious of."   These words echo in my being over and over again.  And there it was!  The internal dialogue started... No, not me... I don't do this.  As I listened to it all... it is all me.  I possess, obsess, request.... and oh yes the ulterior motive at the back of my mind.  That one I saw like flash cards always lingering there at times when I said I loved and also with many other things. The ulterior motive, if I really look it's always there posing as the warrior.  I haven't been loving.. I've been secretly taking, wanting, needing, protecting.   All along my mind saying that I have been betrayed over and over again.... No, I betrayed myself with my Tainted Love.  The mask which I didn't even know I had....this mask which has now been seen...
http://youtu.be/DqgVMJXBOsw
Untainted Love
'Love that does not possess, obsess, request.  has no "ulterior motive" at the back of ones mind...been practicing that love.  And any things that you may be doing as well, and only you are conscious of.  In this case.... we are in the same boat.  I'm not judging you...judging myself... and then...I give it to you.'


Got to keep on walking.....

Tuesday, February 21, 2012

Storytelling Ourselves

Hello Merry Ones,

This is interesting site that my friend is involved in -  
http://ttbook.org/book/story-you
It's all about how we tell stories about ourselves -  to ourselves and others;  how themes change over time in our stories.  It's all "toltec", framed in a different way. We are just a mental construct... perfect!

Thursday, January 26, 2012

Letting go of resistance. Again.

 
Letting go of resistance. Again.

One more time I face my uncomfortable self.
The desire to slide into the old patterns is strong.
The familiar, the safe,
the rut I have spent my life creating.

If I pause and do a brief stalking of my feelings
If I breathe a moment
If don’t have the answer ready before
I’m sure of the question.

This is a vulnerable place
giving up my precious control
 my perceived power.
I think I’m being true to myself if I give into my egos
desire.

Right here is my sticky place.
I am afraid.
If I go through instead of circumnavigate
If I am the change I keep saying I want to be
If I let go of this resistance
to take the next step.

I stalk this fear of resistance.
Discomfort is a portal
a door into my next level
I resist the desire to flee from this discomfort.
Damn

One more time
I face my uncomfortable self.
I desire what I know or think I know.
I resist and
I let go of resistance.